Nature's Favorite "F" word

Hey, if the animals can say it, so can I right?

Pity party, invitation for one

Have you ever had one of those days where you think why in the hell do I need to get out of bed? Or better yet what the hell am I doing? The past few days I've been having a pity party. This past week, school has kicked my ass with having precision neuromusclar therapy seminars on the back and legs. Then getting tested at the end the week with a hands on test where we have to name muscles, their attachments and actions. And just when I think I'm doing really good and I'm getting confident, I freeze during the test and my brain does a complete shut down. So bad mind you that the instructor states that we need to stop, I need to go back and review and we'll test later. He also shared with me that I was the only one in my class that blurred out "fuck" not once, or twice but 5 times.

I look around the school thats filled with students that haven't made it to the 30 year mark. They're laughing and bullshitting through their test not sweating and cursing like a sailor like I am. And that's where the question of what the hell are you doing comes in. What am I doing? Why do I feel so overhelmed? Why do I feel like I'm taking this way to seriously?

He just amazes me!

Is there anything that this kid can't do? I watch him swim in total amazement. Honestly, I'm a tad jealous. But I guess if I was 22 years younger, no hubby, no children, and totally dedeciated, I too could be an Olympic swimmer. NOT! I can barely keep up with my daily walks with Riley.

And you can see in his momma's eyes how proud she is of the accomplishments her son has done. You go boy!!!

That's my boy!

The school counselor called me this morning, which in itself scared me to death, telling me she had to share a funny story about my son. So my first thought was oh my god, what has he done? It was the last half of the day when she walked by the library to find my son, on his first day of kindergarten, asleep on the floor. Yep! My son crashed in the middle of the school library floor. Priceless!

First day of school!!

Today was my kids first of of school. My daughter is now in the 3rd grade and my son is now in kindergarten. My son told me today that he's a big boy now. Surprisingly enough, I didn't cry. Here are some pictures of their morning. My son is a ham isn't he. Wonder where he get's it from??? Hey bro, you know where he gets it!

My daughter is so embarrassed with mom hanging out in the classroom! But that's what we're supposed to do on their first day school...right???



After we got them off to class, I looked at my hubby and asked what do we do now? Of course he said sex, but I had better idea. We went out for breakfast. Sad to say that the house is very quite now.

My babies are leaving the nest

Tomorrow school starts, and even though I have been through this first day of school routine before with my daughter, this will be my first time with my son. Yep...kindergarten. We got him his adult size backpack and all his supplies for kindergarten. And he will be ridding the school bus with his sissy (I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they won't fight like they do in the car). And of course, we do the usual parent thing were we follow the bus to school to get the first shot when they get off the bus and follow them to their classroom. I'll never forget my daughter's first day of kindergarten, we followed the bus to school to get that "I'm growing up" picture and she looked at my husband and I and said "what are you doing here? This school is not for parents?" And you guessed it I bawled like a big ol' baby. But I wasn't the only mom with watery eyes that day.

So I'm wondering how tomorrow will go. My son is much more attached to me that my daughter was. But I'm keeping positive thoughts. He loved preschool, so this should be a walk in the park. But after we do all the ceremonial stuff tomorrow, what do I do with my time. I'm not used to being alone. My hubby took half the day off and I asked him this morning what do we do? He laughed and said "I'm going back to bed!" I do have 4 research papers due for school that I haven't even started yet. Guess I know what I'll be doing huh??? I'll post tomorrow with pictures of our big day!

The loss of a good friend

This morning I found out that a good friend of my family's had passed away. His name was Darrel. He and my dad go to dialysis together three days a week. I would pick them up and take them home two of those days (Darrel lived 5 houses down from me). The news comes as a big shock. His heart just gave out. Just when you think that he was doing so good, and he was always in good spirits, you wake up and find out hes gone. Darrel and I always talked about Nascar. He was as much as a Nascar freak than I am. He would always remind me when the race was for that weekend, then we would pick the race apart the next week. My heart goes out to his wife Nancy and to their children. I will miss him dearly.

Look what I killed...

My daughter came running to me saying "mom, Riley has something in his mouth." And me being so smart told her it was probably his raw hide that I gave him this morning. But she kept on insisting I look. To my amazement it wasn't his raw hide. What a freakin' rat!!! This sucker had a 4 inch tail. He was flipping it up in the air, running around the yard with it in his mouth. At least he didn't roll on it. Anyone have a pet snake that hasn't had lunch??

Good dog!!!!

Some people just amaze me!

As you all know I go to school for massage therapy. And the cost of this school is $22,000 for 12 months. So you would think that if you are spending this kind of money, you would pour your heart and soul into it and learn all you can.

There are only 5 of us in my class, and we have grown very close. We all know what's going on in each others lives whether it's good or bad. But two of my classmates have just gone downhill in the last couple of months. They never show up for class (and this is not regular college, we have to log in 900 hours. If we miss hours, you have to make them up), they are always in a bad mood, they spend all of class time texting, or bringing their laptops in and playing on their facebook page. When it comes to practice time, they just lay on the massage tables and go to sleep. Now the rest of us don't want them even touching us when we have to practice cause their massage sucks! You can feel their bad energy when they walk into the room.

I have bit my lip on more than one occasion. I know that we all have shit that we go through with in our personal lives, but I was always told that you leave your personal issues at the door whether it's work or school. Their actions in the classroom are getting very distracting, so my question is, do I stop biting my lip and let them know exactly how I feel about their behavior? I'm paying damn good money for this education and their interfering with it. Or should I take the issues to the instructors and director of the school and let them handle it. I know it's their money that they are throwing down the toilet, but I feel like if you really don't want to learn and you'd rather be texting, then don't even show up. Am I a tad bitchy on this?? Unbelievable! One just texted me to see if I could work their clinic hours tomorrow night. Arrrhhhh!!!!

Just wanted to say thanks...

I can't tell you enough what a great experience blogging has been for me. I tend to keep my emotions and thoughts bottled up. Not good huh? But that's how my bro and I were raised. My business instructor told us that journaling or blogging was a great outlet. So finally I got enough guts to ask my brother how to get started.

I have told my fellow classmates what a great group of people have come and visited my blog and made great comments on my crazy situations and feelings that I'm going threw at the time.

This weekend is my 20 hour school weekend. I have this schedule every other weekend until December, that's when I graduate. When I get home at 10:30 at night, I looked forward to hopping on my blog and reading any comments you gave, and visiting my fellow bloggers pages. You guys are a great bunch of people, and I can't wait until I get to know you all better in the future.